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He is one of the first of my childhood memories.

Everyday I would hear this teachings after the news on TV. 

And I wondered how could one person can have so many thoughts to teach us.

Not feeling of him as a King, I feel so familiar with him although  I have never met the real him.

He is like a big tree or a shelter or a father that makes me feel safe everyday and when there was bloodshed... I know he would do something when necessary.

I was not so excited about 60th Anniversary celebrations, I didn't care about the great celebration itself, wasn't there either in front of TV or at the venue. I didn't think that it is important. I still remember I was at the office preparing a presentation. I just sent him my best wishes and felt thankful I was born in his time.

I always think being born royal is worse than being born ordinary people like me. You have to sacrifice a lot if you want to be a good royal.

He does not need be good to us. He does not need be bad either. He could choose to be ignorant.

But he has been a good King. And if he weren't a King, as a person, he would be a good person.

What more can we expect from a person? 

Why do we have to expect so much from him whilst he has been giving us more than we have rights to expect from a person?

So many sad songs out there for my sad feelings, but there is no such song for this broken heart at this moment. I'm hurt Thais fight each other and we are breaking his heart.

I could have been on that train... or not.

I met this lady at the Kindertransport statue at Liverpool Street Station.

She was sitting in front of the statue and being filmed by her middle-aged son.

It took a while and I wonder she must have some horrific memories about the Holocaust and Kindertransport when she was a small girl.

Her gesture, sitting still in sunshine, her eyes kept looking at these metal children, and then gently touched the word 'Vienna' made me ask her, "Were you on that train?"

She replied, "I was lucky. I have a family here. But yes yes I could have been on that train... or not". Looking deep in her eyes, I feel the pain of an 80-year-old baby who had to unwillingly witness the most horrific event that left the scars to millions of people.

And the last words she said to me was, 'Thank you'.

Always speechless

The Holocaust Exhibition, Imperial War Museum

I always get speechless about the holocaust.

Having seen drawings and poems of a Jewish girl for her German friend in a concentration camp hurts.

A walk in Auschwitz paralyzed me.

Think about the quote "The world is divided into places where they (Jewish people) cannot live and places into which they cannot enter" over and over.

And learn from what Heinrich Heine said, "Where one burns books, one will, in the end, burn people".

For the past week, I feel that the tone of the voice of Thaksin from the telespeech sounds similar to Adolf Hitler. And I despises what he does and what he says. And I take side, the opposite side to him and believe that eventually in the end of his life, it would be as catastrophic as how Hitler and his dickhead acquaintances ended their lives.

Let the karma do it job.

Why we human never learn to learn from the past?

And how can some people be so power hungry?

In the end, we cannot take anything with us.

Such a fool.