Not very different but very different.
Tired vs Retired
Lonely vs Loved
There vs Here
Friday 30 January 2009
Thursday 29 January 2009
The Wrestler
Love it.When you see a big guy cry and being both physically and emotionally fragile, it's heartbreaking.
Big guys also need to be nurtured, too.
I started to like this kind of styling (yeah, it's unusual) and the Ram's gesture, touching his left side hair and the ritual touch at his elbows before he fights.
Mickey Rourke rocks!
The Wrestler rocks!
The screenplay is brilliant.
About the Back
Talking about the Back, I was just back from watching a film "The Wrestler" and surprisingly, I realized 40-50% of the main character appearance, "the Ram" or "Randy" (played by superb Mickey Rourke) is his back. The first 3-4 minutes of the film, all I see was Randy's back and Rourke was superb that he could show the emotion through his back, hands and gesture. I mean it. So powerful and How could Rourke do that?
I think this is a symbol of the way the wrestler is shown on telly when he's walking to the ring.
The Ram is always the Ram with his fighting spirit although being a wrestler is rather being a faker and an entertainer.
Where ever he goes, how fragile he is, what he brings with him is a spirit of a fighter.
I'm falling in love with Mickey Rourke now and hope he win the Oscar for best leading actor.
Wednesday 28 January 2009
Hussein Chalayan's exhibition
at the Design Museum
in association with Puma
I love how they display these three dresses in this curvy room.
It makes me think of Kanye West's Gold Digger MV when he turns his back singing. Super cool.
It's sometimes more visually powerful when you show just the Back because things are usually shown in the front.
แสงเช้า
จะออกไปส่งเพื่อนที่ฮีทโทรวแอร์พอร์ทแต่เช้ายืนรอรถเมล์สาย ๕๒ ตอนเจ็ดโมงครึ่ง
แสงสวยทอดลงมาที่เสาหน้าบ้านของใครสักคน
เห็นหนอนน้อยเดินอย่างช้าๆ
ไม่ต้องเบียดหรือต่อคิวขึ้นรถเมล์กับใครเลย
Grandma on a cake
Love grandma with big eyes on this cake in a bakery in Piccadilly Circus.Very bold eyes and very funny to me.
Supposed to be a nice grandma but she seems scary haha.
T-mobile : Life's for Sharing
T-Mobile TV advert
Agency: Saatchi & Saatchi LondonAlthough I didn't like it that much, there is something I like about it
1) the short version shown next to elevator on the underground... gosh that one second camera flash in the very end of the film. By intention or naturally from the audience, it makes me feel something.... like it's real. Just a flash is very very powerful to me.
Small details make a complete picture. And I believe they chose to include this shot by intention.
I think only this short version is only available for the underground ad.
2) Real event makes an advert. They made a real event at Liverpool Street station first then make that a film broadcast in 24 hours. People experience it before they see themselves in the advert and perhaps they already spread the news to their friends and family before the tvc went on the air.
3) the song My Girl Lollipop.. you make my heart goooo giddy-up... :)
What's Wrong with the Bottom?
While I was cooking pepper-garlic shrimps,
I thought to myself if the bottom of the garlic clove could say, it would say...
... what's wrong with me?
... why you have to cut me out of the meal?
... why can't I join the cocktail party with shrimps and pepper on the pan?
... why can't I join you the table?
... when I am as delicious as the rest part of the clove
... and I do no harm.. uh I don't know if I do any harm but I don't think I do
... and you can chew me
... and I do no wrong
... just that I'm not pretty.
News = Advert
News = Advert
I read the Tuesday 27 Jan's London paper, the daily free paper given away weekday afternoon in London, on a Northern line to my friend's house in Camden town and was amazed with the news "THROUGH THE KEYHOLE... AT THE PETE DOHERTY'S PAD" with images of the messy bedroom, kitchen and lounge with words:
Pete Doherty may be trying to clean up his act but, from the look of these photos he should start by cleaning the house. The rocker invited Babyshambles guitarist Mick Whitnall over to his country house in Marlborough, Wiltshire, but didn't bother to tidy. It seems the singer had a rough night, with his bed turned on its end in a student-style room. His love of cats is also clear with at least half a dozen of the creatures roaming around the property.
Looking at a picture of an upside-down bed in this Kate Moss's ex-boyfriend and I wonder .... wow how that could happen! The news was made as if it's a snap from Mick Whitnall.
Just 5 minutes later, the first thing I saw when I got out of the station is a telephone booth with MTV ONE's advert: PETE DOHERTY IN 24 HOURS. AS YOU'VE NEVER SEEN HIM BEFORE. SUNDAY 25 JAN 10 PM. MTV ONE. MTV.CO.UK/PETEDOHERTY
I'm not sure if what I saw on the paper is just the news. Because it did not mention any thing about the visit from MTV. Looks like the news but not the news. I think it's the advert that links to the more obvious advert when you're up on the ground.
Although the programme has already been on the air two days ago, but when I got out of the train and saw this poster, I went to the website to watch it straightaway!
Well, I guess it works for me. You make people curious first in the underground and then tell them there is some place they can really be part of that experience once they're up on the ground. And once you have invested in the programme, make the most of it beyond just the telly but after that on the internet and then people see other ads on the website.
At least, there is somebody's room that is messier than mine.
Tuesday 27 January 2009
On Death and Dying by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
Current read: On Death & Dying - What the Dying Have To Teach Doctors, Nurses, Clergy, and Their Own Families by Elisabeth Kubler-RossDr.Elisabeth, a psychiatrist quoted the conversation she had with terminally ill patients and have a catagorized the grief into 5 stages: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance
Death is the thing I fear the most therefore I picked this book from the shelf at Foyles.
This book has some contents similar to the "Life Before Death" exhibition at the Wellcome Collection in May 2008. Death has become a taboo in the modern world since we are prevented from experiencing death unlike in the past that the dying would die at home surrounded by family and children are included in the process of dying and grief. Today most of us die at hospitals in grief.
Contents that touched me from the exhibition back in May last year.
The first exhibition I saw somebody burst into tears in front of the black and white photo of a dead baby and I couldn't help it too.
The most moving exhibition I've ever been part of.
Simple but moving because the content of real life that most of us would not experience until the time comes, the moment of dying and the bravery of the journalist and the photographer
"Life Before Death"
Photographer: Walter Schels
Journalist: Beate Lakotta
"Some of them couldn't accept that their life was going to an end because they didn't really live before. That's what they expressed. They said oh now is the end? I just thought it would be going to start. I just want to start living now. My whole life was work and now I wanted to enjoy my retirement or I wanted to enjoy my partnership... my relationship to somebody.
I wanted to spend more time with my children. And they were very surprised that death came so suddenly so unexpected and they were very frustrated and sad." - Beate Lakotta
"In truth, it's very modern taboo. In former times, people have been used to having contact with dying people and also to have their beloved ones at home when they die so everybody even small children have an experience how it looks like, how the last breath sounds, how somebody looks like when he's dead, how it feels to touch somebody who's dead. And we lost this contact with death and dying since death has been banned to hospitals." - Beate Lakotta
"I think if you just try to imagine how you would like to be treated when you're dead, I wouldn't like to be treated as just a corpse or dead body... umm just close the coffin as soon as possible. I would like people I love... would look at my last face." - Beate Lakotta
"What I think the most important thing is to be aware that life has an end. To live daily life. Don't expect late for anything else but today." - Walter Schels
"We asked, in the beginning, we would like to take a portrait now and we would like to stay with you, we would like to visit you until the end. And we would like to take a portrait when you're dead. For us it was very difficult to ask this question. We had always been afraid to ask this because you express I'm convinced that you will die. When you ask somebody we would like to take a portrait after when you're dead. You express I don't believe in a miracle. I believe you will die very soon. And this was a very difficult question." - Beate Lakotta
"I'm not going to waste what time is left for me feeling sorry for myself. After all, the whole of life is a journey. Let's wait and see what the final part has to offer." - Irmgard Schmidt
"I'll be 57 today. I never thought of myself growing old, but nor did I ever think I'd die when I was still young. But death strikes at any age. It came as a real shock. I had never contemplated death at all, only life. I'm surprised that I have come to terms with it fairly easily. Now I'm lying here waiting to die, but each day that I have I savour, experience life to the full. I never paid any attention to clouds before. Now I see everything from a totally different perspective: every cloud outside my window, every flower in the vase. Suddenly everything matters." - Wolfgang Kotzahn
"My whole life was nothing but work, work, work. Does it really have to happen now? Can't death wait? I'm just so frightened. I don't even know whether I'll be going to heaven or hell." - Gerda Strech, died 68
"To be able to have one more summer. To go to the sea with my husband one last time. Not to die now but rather to have until autumn." - Beate Taube
"I'm so sad that I won't be there to support my children. I wanted to be there for them forever. Now I tell them a hundred times a day how much I love them."
For years, Heinz Muller has kept a pair of shoes hidden away. They are the shoes his mother was wearing when she was taken to the hospital where she died. --- "Every year, just before Christmas I would take out the shoes and polish them. Only this year I didn't get round to it because I was feeling too weak, I feel as if she's expecting me." - Heinz Muller
Monday 26 January 2009
Common sense is...
- when a bus door is opened again by a bus driver for latecomers after it had been closed one second before. This always makes me smile. A driver who turns a blind eye to take off is like a robot being controlled by timetables - lack of human common sense.
- when you see somebody grabs their bag, ready to get out of the bus and you keep out of their way or c'mon why can't you sit inside by the window so when someone who just get on a bus doesn't have to squeeze themselves in that narrow way (because of your knees, feet, and shopping bags) to the inside seat. Do it at your living room.
- when you know you're supposed to call me now!
- and the common sense award goes to a manager at Kyoto restaurant in SOHO. A service with common sense to details.
Quotes I like from the Body Worlds
From the Body Worlds exhibition
"Years may wrinkle the skin but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul." by Samuel Ullman
"Skin provides information about how the outside world feels."
Touched by a 4-week embryo
I was touched by A 4-week embryo today.He/she was sleeping peacefully in a small glass container.
The 4-week one has its size as small as an ant.
When it's 28 days, it has eyes and heart.
This beautiful small creature will have fingers when it's 8 weeks.
It reminds me of screenplay in Juno.
So tiny, so beautiful.
Can't help crying when I saw this teardrop-sized human at the Body Worlds exhibition at O2.
A campaign against abortion should show these embryos to teenagers.
Not just a baby in the womb but how this little dear grows from a very very small size to having fingers, having hair, and get bigger and bigger.
Make them love the embryos before making them love the babies!
So cute!
ต้นคริสมาสต์ที่เจ๋งที่สุดในโลก
เดือนที่แล้ววันที่ ๒๖ ธันวาคม ระหว่างเดินกลับบ้านจากสถานี Ladbroke Grove ก็ได้เจอเซอร์ไพรส์ของวัน เหมือนกับเป็นของขวัญวันคริสมาสต์ให้กับเรายังไงยังงั้น
ต้นไม้แห้งๆที่ใบเหลือน้อยอย่างแรง ก็เป็นต้นคริสมาสต์น่ารักได้ ยิ้มไปทั้งวัน
คนเดินผ่านไปผ่านมา เด็ก ผู้ใหญ่ ต้องหยุดหันขึ้นไปมอง
เดินชมวิวด้วยสองขามันก็ดีอย่างนี้แล
The older you are, the younger you look.
While some people's appearance gets old with their age, for some the older they get, the younger they look.
Look at Kate 11 years ago and now she looks a lot younger with 11 more years added in her calendar.
Sunday 25 January 2009
daily it was - time machine
What a pity that the history and the past cannot come again nor we cannot find a way to go back at that time.
I want a time machine so that I can go back to when my grandma was still a teenager.
Things seem to be more beautiful at that time when people were more delicate in lots of things than today.
Grandma told me it was common to have 'a dress for taking a walk', 'real elegant nigh gown', and 'outdoor outfit' for outdoor activities.
12 September 2005
daily it was - kind
Today I went to the cloth market for poor people.
So many times I visit this market and people there are kind to me.
This time, a ragged-looking woman who was shopping for 1-Baht cloth handed me a blouse she thought match with me. She is poor but she is rich of kindness.
Never experience this at Central Ladprao.
10 September 2005
daily it was - kids
"In the name of Adulthood, we lost our spontaneity and miss gold moments.
Do you feel you have lost your spontaneity, you capacity to play?
When was the last time you dared being silly?
Playing with the kids, with your dog or doing cartwheels just because you felt like it?"
by Marguerite Tennier
I did an interview with a couple of kids today and one of them asked me,
"Will you come back tomorrow?" :)
25 April 2006
daily it was - simple life
Just back from New Year trip in Suan Pheung with Pammie. A truly simple life!
We spent 4 days 3 nights surrounded by nature, cows, prairie, no mobile signals.
Many simple things we did - homemade pasta, orang juice squeezed by me.
We went to a hidden creek in a mountain.
Played with my uncle's dogs, Luna, Luno and Mocha.
Joined the camp fire at night at 16c (so cold for thailand)
Warmed up the body with red wine.
In the morning, we had an original kind of spa in natural hot spring.
It's like we are left in a remote area that also got us thrilled by a giant gecko, blackout, a run-out-of battery Freelander, an almost blown-out tyre and sound of gunshooting at 2 am.
Oh dear what more can you ask from a real simple life the nature has already offered?
It has all that life needs.
It's just you choose to see it or not, appreciate it or not, take it or not.
I can't ask for more to be happy from a cozy house with lovely dogs, lovely family, endless prairie, mountains, delicious coffee, books, one post office, one market, two photo shops, two groceries, and nice people. enough.
Always miss Suan Pheung in Winter.
26 December 2006
Daily it was - my own quotes
Doc, you don't seem to get it. A woman without high heels is just like a man without his dick. It's about confidence and power. It's women's 33rd organ. Stop telling me not to wear them.
Drawing eyeliner is my morning meditation.
The ecstasy of dressing up is that you'll feel as if you're increasing your own life expectancy - an orgasm of living life.
Go for it. Go for something that scares you. Something that pushes you on edge. That's the right choice.
Nothing smells sweeter than brand new clothes and books, even bank notes.
Heart break is the only best opportunity that lets you feel as if you're Julia Roberts in My Best Friend's Wedding.
Every woman is born privileged. Falling off high heels, being able to burst into tears whenever wherever we feel like. The vulnerability that only belongs to us.
daily it was - surrealism
Love the painting, "The Autobiography of an Embryo"
The painting consists of ancient, primitive characters, plants and animals.
It carries a message about a womb magic.
"Memories of collective experiences that embryo carries into the world"
To me, that's so true.
Another one is a short film that believes in "The Credibility of the Unreal" rather than "The Credibility of Reality". Again, to me that's so true.
The unconsciousness and dreams reveal much about the real you.
What's really on your mind.
Sometimes we should just follow what our unconscious mind suggests.
Just give it a shot.
While it's okay that our dreams at night don't make any sense,
it should absolutely fine that our daydreams don't need to make sense either.
It doesn't need any reasons. It's okay if it just happens.
Who cares?
It's the credibility of the unreal.
Keep dreaming.
30 August 2007
daily it was - crying is an anthem of life
Crying is an anthem of life.
From cradle to grave, we cry to celebrate our birth, our first day on Earth, our achievement, our mistakes in life, the desperate moment, the joyful moments, the blank moments and right after we know we are about to take the unknown journey after life.
After all, crying is an element of major incidents of life.
Never hold it back.
A drop of tear is a cheer of life.
It's not weakness.
It's an anthem.
*inspired by song "Crying over you" by Ken Boothe
30 August 2007
daily it was - save water
It is a drink mixer.
It is in lager.
It cures a hangover.
It is in a cup of coffee.
It erased the smudgy eyeliner when you oops oh I overdraw it, and the smudge after party.
It gets rid of the puke on your clothes.
It washes away the stains of any guilty pleasure of the day.
It thoroughly cleans all the dirty shit you take at the company meeting inside out once you drink it.
There are a lot of beautiful things in life that water gives to us which are not only the mixture of joys mixed by water but also the part that remains when the ugly is detoxed out of the body, objects, life.
*inspired by my coat that was puked on by a drunk girl, a need of fix morning after party, bullshit and stress in meeting, warm shower, and water.
31 August 2007
daily it was - little girls shopping
Well I know our girly uncontrollable shopping habit is sometimes annoying but we knew how to shop since we were very little.
It's a genetic kind of thing plus learning, mummy and auntie take us to the market every week when we're young.
4 September 2007
daily it was - it wasn't named
Being natural is being romantic.
One of the most romantic furniture shops in the West.
Love the way it wasn't named and the stuff put all over the place, especially the just-finished-this morning cup of coffee on the display shelf.
Very studio-like is so romantic.
10 September 2007
daily it was - walk at the same pace
I was down on an underground escalator and saw an old couple on the right lane slowly walking and looking at young crowd running past by on the left lane in their rush hour. again and again.
Sad scene for me.
"Left or Right," I thought.
I am not an angel but I couldn't help staying on the right with them, being afraid I would be another person who, again, makes them feel they are a little too old and slow for the underground they have been using for their entire life.
Deep inside, sometimes people just want to be accompanied by an anonymous companion, not physically, but mentally - to make them feel that they still belong to the streets they cross everyday or the footpath they walk every morning.
I just realized the cliche scene of a younger generation helping an aging lady to cross the road (Snack Jack TV commercial). That is more than helping on the physical weakness but it makes her feel she is not too slow. she still belongs to this world that at least there is somebody who walks at the same pace as they do and they no longer have to feel out of place.
Suddenly, that cliche scene is not a cliche for me any more. And will never be.
Pretend to be slow feels good sometimes.
23 September 2007
daily it was - the past is the source
Cy Twombly once said, "For myself the past is the source".
And I have been thinking backward lately.
It's like when I try to get English lyrics from the songs. I pressed STOP and then pressed REWIND and then PLAY.
STOP - REWIND - PLAY.
Stop to see / listen to it.
Rewind to understand.
And then you can play with it.
I believe in thinking backward, searching for the origin in whatever you name it in the world.
To understand it deeply. Understand why it is it. What is the reason that it exists.
My cowboy uncle often tells me about the "NO READ, BUT THINK" process.
Well, I know he is way a little too extreme.
But yes, I have been thinking backward a lot lately by stopping to see and listen.
Why does PLAYBOY use RABBIT as symbol?
Rabbit is a symbol of sexual desire. (Temptation in Eden exhibition)
Why there are always the cases of the Fall of Man or the falling men and sex scandal (Bill Clinton, Hugh Grant, Prince Charles, Eliot Spitzer, etc)
Well, it was told to be the truth of the world since the origin of mankind if you believe in Adam and Eve.
From Temptation of Eden exhibition and the paintings named "The Fall of Man", it talks about 'the danger of female power & sexuality' and 'Eve's evil dominant role in the fall of man'.
Yes, that old apple story is applicable to human desire and the fall of them. It's human nature. Will always be. And the story of the Fall of Man goes on.
We are now communicating with emoticons on MSN Messenger like the Egyptian communicated with their hieroglyphs.
Blood & Flesh Breakfast served on the first page of tabloid paper is another form of voyeurism pleasure of brutality in the age of Roman Gladiator.
Old is truly the new new. And the Past is the Source.
23 September 2007
daily it was - wild night is Freud's art
Wild night in is Freud's art.
It reveals the unconsciousness.
It's doodling for its psychological revelations.
It deconstructs what is repressed.
It's psychological treatment just like drawing, painting, sculpting or writing.
12 October 2008
daily it was - sound from heaven
Alarm goes off and then it always gets snoozed.
10 minutes more. that's what I told myself in a state of 'about to get up, shall I?"
Here it comes again, my personal wake up call - the scream of pupils playing so hard on their 10:30 am break at this elementary school, the backdoor neighbour.
The beautiful sound of youth that lets me dream awake that
there is innocence
there is today
there is tomorrow
there is play
the sick world suddenly seems hopeful and beautiful with their scream.
I feel hopeful.
Like grandpa said to us every time he heard us played and we made loud noise, to him it was "sound from heaven" / "sieng sawun".
I now realized why he was so happy to hear our annoying noise.
It gives an ability to hope that
the innocence still exists
today exists
tomorrow will come
and you can feel young forever.
*inspired by a film "Children of Men". Unstoppable noise of a crying baby, the first baby born in 27 years in the future world, turns out to be the most beautiful sound human beings will have ever heard in the 27 years that we cannot reproduce.
13 October 2007
daily it was - those whom I wish immortal
Ever heard somebody saying something and you wish, "gosh, I wish them an immortal life"?
Ever heard a song that hits you so hard and you wish, "gosh, I want this artist to live forever and for some, I wish they wouldn't have ended their lives so soon"?
And if those who make your heart sing died, your world would be so dull.
They are the people who make you feel it's worth being born, living life, opening your eyes, your ears, your senses, getting up every morning, going out at night to meet what the world has to offer.
Apart from family, here is the list often flashes in my mind:
Bird Thongchai
DJ who makes me dance my arse off.
Progreso iced coffee
Joey Boy
Marvin Gaye
Service people who treat you so well that you can feel they do it from their hearts.
Kids. I wish they'd never grow up and stay small forever.
The innocense in them should never die away.
Long live.
Long live.
Long live.
24 November 2008
daily it was - do you believe in 'long-live'?
Got this idea when I'm terribly sick. now.
Sleep in or dance the night away?
Physically happy or mentally happy?
Live longer or enjoy the moment to the full?
Long term of enjoy the moment?
Tomorrow or today?
Slow but sure or give it all you've got?
Body or heart that comes first?
Why people are talking about life expectancy?
Can anybody guarantee long life expectancy means quality?
Here comes the dilemma, shall I go out tonight or sleep in?
20 December 2008
daily it was - a matter of pace
Pace. Pace. Pace.
Pace matters.
Even we live in the same world, each of us, however, lives at a very different pace.. a very personal pace.
Between city and city... NYC and Southern Italy.
Between breeds... slothes and chimpanzee.
Between you and me.
Between you and your best friend.
Between regions in the same country.
I believe that many problems occur because of the misunderstanding of the different pace.
For some people, slow is fast enough for them while for some, fast never seem fast enough as their hearts want it to be.
Over 60% of mexican are obese. Obesity in Mexico happens because they've developed the fast-paced living of the American lifestyle - fast food and tv while the pace of their healthcare concept has still not changed.
Whilst you're dancing and you feel your dancing partner is not right .. that's because you're not sharing the same pace of movement. maybe you feel the music at a different beat.
North eastern people and Bangkokian. We're far different.
It's very sad to see them not having basic facilities when people in the city have it - having something life does not really need.
Politically resulted, North-easterners still vote for the leader who promises to help to stop the poverty they have. In fact, that's just an illusion and how the bastards pave the way to corrupt.
People are used as a tool of the power-hungers.
There is nothing wrong for them to vote for those who promises to feed their life and they can't bother to care about any other reason not to do so.
Sad but true - and when Esarn people want to move at the same pace as city people, that's even more sad.
Even within ourselves, when we split some words without thinking.
We just lose an ability to harmonise the thinking and speaking process.
Pace matters in life whether when we walk, speak, eat, dance, think, etc.
We have GMT as the world's standard clock to tell time but we don't have a parameter to measure life pace.
It's like each of us has another clock, our own parallel clock.
Living at the same pace would make happy love.
You just feel it when you found out you're sharing the same pace with somebody.
20 December 2007
daily it was - basic needs
a matter of basic needs.
air, food, drink, shelter, warmth, sex, sleep.
if basic needs can make us happy
what else in the world would we want more?
what else do we have to look for more?
one for me, an intimate conversation.
let's back to basic plus an intimate conversation.
9 March 2008
daily it was - giving
ชนทั้งหลายเหล่าใด เมื่อของมีน้อยก็แบ่งให้ เหมือนพวกเดินทางไกลก็แบ่งของให้แก่พวกที่เดินทางร่วมกัน - เทวดา พระไตรปิฎก ฉบับชาวบ้าน
23 March 2008
daily it was - heaven i'm in heaven
heaving i'm in heaven
and my heart beats so that i can hardly speak...
and i seem to find the happiness i seek...
haven i'm in heaven
and the cares that hung around through the week...
seem to vanish like a gamblers lucky streak...
...me in the historic...
...banglumpu
...thaprachan
...samsen
...ratchadamnern
...sao ching cha
...pra atit
26 March 2008
daily it was - London
London
Perfect for jazz songs
Dull weather that makes a lonely heart cry
Bus catchers left disappointed of the closed door
Walking in the past
The old meet the new
Perfect to be a nobody
A mood-swing lady
13 April 2008
daily it was - All that life needs
เผื่อแผ่ Giving
จินตนาการ Imagination
อิสรภาพ Freedom
รัก Love
24 April 2008
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