The older you are, the younger you look.

While some people's appearance gets old with their age, for some the older they get, the younger they look.

Look at Kate 11 years ago and now she looks a lot younger with 11 more years added in her calendar. 

daily it was - time machine

What a pity that the history and the past cannot come again nor we cannot find a way to go back at that time.

I want a time machine so that I can go back to when my grandma was still  a teenager.

Things seem to be more beautiful at that time when people were more delicate in lots of things than today.

Grandma told me it was common to have 'a dress for taking a walk', 'real elegant nigh gown', and 'outdoor outfit' for outdoor activities.

12 September 2005

daily it was - kind

Today I went to the cloth market for poor people.

So many times I visit this market and people there are kind to me.

This time, a ragged-looking woman who was shopping for 1-Baht cloth handed me a blouse she thought match with me. She is poor but she is rich of kindness.

Never experience this at Central Ladprao.

10 September 2005

daily it was - kids

"In the name of Adulthood, we lost our spontaneity and miss gold moments.

Do you feel you have lost your spontaneity, you capacity to play?

When was the last time you dared being silly?

Playing with the kids, with your dog or doing cartwheels just because you felt like it?"

by Marguerite Tennier

I did an interview with a couple of kids today and one of them asked me,

"Will you come back tomorrow?" :)

25 April 2006

daily it was - simple life

Just back from New Year trip in Suan Pheung with Pammie. A truly simple life!

We spent 4 days 3 nights surrounded by nature, cows, prairie, no mobile signals.

Many simple things we did - homemade pasta, orang juice squeezed by me.

We went to a hidden creek in a mountain.

Played with my uncle's dogs, Luna, Luno and Mocha.

Joined the camp fire at night at 16c (so cold for thailand)

Warmed up the body with red wine.

In the morning, we had an original kind of spa in natural hot spring.

It's like we are left in a remote area that also got us thrilled by a giant gecko, blackout, a run-out-of battery Freelander, an almost blown-out tyre and sound of gunshooting at 2 am.

Oh dear what more can you ask from a real simple life the nature has already offered?

It has all that life needs.

It's just you choose to see it or not, appreciate it or not, take it or not.

I can't ask for more to be happy from a cozy house with lovely dogs, lovely family, endless prairie, mountains, delicious coffee, books, one post office, one market, two photo shops, two groceries, and nice people. enough.

Always miss Suan Pheung in Winter.

26 December 2006

Daily it was - my own quotes

Doc, you don't seem to get it. A woman without high heels is just like a man without his dick. It's about confidence and power. It's women's 33rd organ. Stop telling me not to wear them.

Drawing eyeliner is my morning meditation.

The ecstasy of dressing up is that you'll feel as if you're increasing your own life expectancy - an orgasm of living life.

Go for it. Go for something that scares you. Something that pushes you on edge. That's the right choice.

Nothing smells sweeter than brand new clothes and books, even bank notes.

Heart break is the only best opportunity that lets you feel as if you're Julia Roberts in My Best Friend's Wedding.

Every woman is born privileged. Falling off high heels, being able to burst into tears whenever wherever we feel like. The vulnerability that only belongs to us.

daily it was - surrealism

Love the painting, "The Autobiography of an Embryo"

The painting consists of ancient, primitive characters, plants and animals.

It carries a message about a womb magic. 

"Memories of collective experiences that embryo carries into the world"

To me, that's so true.

Another one is a short film that believes in "The Credibility of the Unreal" rather than "The Credibility of Reality". Again, to me that's so true.

The unconsciousness and dreams reveal much about the real you.

What's really on your mind.

Sometimes we should just follow what our unconscious mind suggests.

Just give it a shot.

While it's okay that our dreams at night don't make any sense,

it should absolutely fine that our daydreams don't need to make sense either.

It doesn't need any reasons. It's okay if it just happens.

Who cares?

It's the credibility of the unreal.

Keep dreaming.

30 August 2007

daily it was - crying is an anthem of life

Crying is an anthem of life.

From cradle to grave, we cry to celebrate our birth, our first day on Earth, our achievement, our mistakes in life, the desperate moment, the joyful moments, the blank moments and right after we know we are about to take the unknown journey after life.

After all, crying is an element of major incidents of life.

Never hold it back.

A drop of tear is a cheer of life.

It's not weakness.

It's an anthem.

*inspired by song "Crying over you" by Ken Boothe

30 August 2007

daily it was - save water

It is a drink mixer.

It is in lager.

It cures a hangover.

It is in a cup of coffee.

It erased the smudgy eyeliner when you oops oh I overdraw it, and the smudge after party.

It gets rid of the puke on your clothes.

It washes away the stains of any guilty pleasure of the day.

It thoroughly cleans all the dirty shit you take at the company meeting inside out once you drink it.

There are a lot of beautiful things in life that water gives to us which are not only the mixture of joys mixed by water but also the part that remains when the ugly is detoxed out of the body, objects, life.

*inspired by my coat that was puked on by a drunk girl, a need of fix morning after party, bullshit and stress in meeting, warm shower, and water.

31 August 2007

daily it was - little girls shopping

Well I know our girly uncontrollable shopping habit is sometimes annoying but we knew how to shop since we were very little.

It's a genetic kind of thing plus learning, mummy and auntie take us to the market every week when we're young.

4 September 2007

daily it was - it wasn't named

Being natural is being romantic.

One of the most romantic furniture shops in the West.

Love the way it wasn't named and the stuff put all over the place, especially the just-finished-this morning cup of coffee on the display shelf.

Very studio-like is so romantic.

10 September 2007

daily it was - walk at the same pace

I was down on an underground escalator and saw an old couple on the right lane slowly walking and looking at young crowd running past by on the left lane in their rush hour. again and again.

Sad scene for me.

"Left or Right," I thought. 

I am not an angel but I couldn't help staying on the right with them, being afraid I would be another person who, again, makes them feel they are a little too old and slow for the underground they have been using for their entire life.

Deep inside, sometimes people just want to be accompanied by an anonymous companion, not physically, but mentally - to make them feel that they still belong to the streets they cross everyday or the footpath they walk every morning.

I just realized the cliche scene of a younger generation helping an aging lady to cross the road (Snack Jack TV commercial). That is more than helping on the physical weakness but it makes her feel she is not too slow. she still belongs to this world that at least there is somebody who walks at the same pace as they do and they no longer have to feel out of place.

Suddenly, that cliche scene is not a cliche for me any more. And will never be.

Pretend to be slow feels good sometimes.

23 September 2007

daily it was - the past is the source

Cy Twombly once said, "For myself the past is the source".

And I have been thinking backward lately.

It's like when I try to get English lyrics from the songs. I pressed STOP and then pressed REWIND and then PLAY.

STOP - REWIND - PLAY.

Stop to see / listen to it.

Rewind to understand.

And then you can play with it.

I believe in thinking backward, searching for the origin in whatever you name it in the world.

To understand it deeply. Understand why it is it. What is the reason that it exists.

My cowboy uncle often tells me about the "NO READ, BUT THINK" process.

Well, I know he is way a little too extreme.

But yes, I have been thinking backward a lot lately by stopping to see and listen.

Why does PLAYBOY use RABBIT as symbol?

Rabbit is a symbol of sexual desire. (Temptation in Eden exhibition)

Why there are always the cases of the Fall of Man or the falling men and sex scandal (Bill Clinton, Hugh Grant, Prince Charles, Eliot Spitzer, etc)

Well, it was told to be the truth of the world since the origin of mankind if you believe in Adam and Eve.

From Temptation of Eden exhibition and the paintings named "The Fall of Man", it talks about 'the danger of female power & sexuality' and 'Eve's evil dominant role in the fall of man'.

Yes, that old apple story is applicable to human desire and the fall of them. It's human nature. Will always be. And the story of the Fall of Man goes on.

We are now communicating with emoticons on MSN Messenger like the Egyptian communicated with their hieroglyphs.

Blood & Flesh Breakfast served on the first page of tabloid paper is another form of voyeurism pleasure of brutality in the age of Roman Gladiator.

Old is truly the new new. And the Past is the Source.

23 September 2007

daily it was - wild night is Freud's art

Wild night in is Freud's art.

It reveals the unconsciousness.

It's doodling for its psychological revelations.

It deconstructs what is repressed.

It's psychological treatment just like drawing, painting, sculpting or writing.

12 October 2008

daily it was - sound from heaven

Alarm goes off and then it always gets snoozed.

10 minutes more. that's what I told myself in a state of 'about to get up, shall I?"

Here it comes again, my personal wake up call - the scream of pupils playing so hard on their 10:30 am break at this elementary school, the backdoor neighbour.

The beautiful sound of youth that lets me dream awake that

there is innocence

there is today

there is tomorrow

there is play

the sick world suddenly seems hopeful and beautiful with their scream.

I feel hopeful.

Like grandpa said to us every time he heard us played and we made loud noise, to him it was "sound from heaven" / "sieng sawun".

I now realized why he was so happy to hear our annoying noise.

It gives an ability to hope that

the innocence still exists

today exists

tomorrow will come

and you can feel young forever.

*inspired by a film "Children of Men". Unstoppable noise of a crying baby, the first baby born in 27 years in the future world, turns out to be the most beautiful sound human beings will have ever heard in the 27 years that we cannot reproduce.

13 October 2007

daily it was - those whom I wish immortal

Ever heard somebody saying something and you wish, "gosh, I wish them an immortal life"?

Ever heard a song that hits you so hard and you wish, "gosh, I want this artist to live forever and for some, I wish they wouldn't have ended their lives so soon"?

And if those who make your heart sing died, your world would be so dull.

They are the people who make you feel it's worth being born, living life, opening your eyes, your ears, your senses, getting up every morning, going out at night to meet what the world has to offer.

Apart from family, here is the list often flashes in my mind:

Bird Thongchai

DJ who makes me dance my arse off.

Progreso iced coffee

Joey Boy

Marvin Gaye

Service people who treat you so well that you can feel they do it from their hearts.

Kids. I wish they'd never grow up and stay small forever.

The innocense in them should never die away.

Long live. 

Long live.

Long live.

24 November 2008

daily it was - do you believe in 'long-live'?

Got this idea when I'm terribly sick. now.

Sleep in or dance the night away?

Physically happy or mentally happy? 

Live longer or enjoy the moment to the full?

Long term of enjoy the moment?

Tomorrow or today?

Slow but sure or give it all you've got?

Body or heart that comes first?

Why people are talking about life expectancy?

Can anybody guarantee long life expectancy means quality?

Here comes the dilemma, shall I go out tonight or sleep in?

20 December 2008

daily it was - a matter of pace

Pace. Pace. Pace.

Pace matters.

Even we live in the same world, each of us, however, lives at a very different pace.. a very personal pace.

Between city and city... NYC and Southern Italy.

Between breeds... slothes and chimpanzee.

Between you and me.

Between you and your best friend.

Between regions in the same country.

I believe that many problems occur because of the misunderstanding of the different pace. 

For some people, slow is fast enough for them while for some, fast never seem fast enough as their hearts want it to be.

Over 60% of mexican are obese. Obesity in Mexico happens because they've developed the fast-paced living of the American lifestyle - fast food and tv while the pace of their healthcare concept has still not changed.

Whilst you're dancing and you feel your dancing partner is not right .. that's because you're not sharing the same pace of movement. maybe you feel the music at a different beat.

North eastern people and Bangkokian. We're far different.

It's very sad to see them not having basic facilities when people in the city have it - having something life does not really need.

Politically resulted, North-easterners still vote for the leader who promises to help to stop the poverty they have. In fact, that's just an illusion and how the bastards pave the way to corrupt.

People are used as a tool of the power-hungers.

There is nothing wrong for them to vote for those who promises to feed their life and they can't bother to care about any other reason not to do so.

Sad but true - and when Esarn people want to move at the same pace as city people, that's even more sad.

Even within ourselves, when we split some words without thinking.

We just lose an ability to harmonise the thinking and speaking process.

Pace matters in life whether when we walk, speak, eat, dance, think, etc.

We have GMT as the world's standard clock to tell time but we don't have a parameter to measure life pace. 

It's like each of us has another clock, our own parallel clock.

Living at the same pace would make happy love.

You just feel it when you found out you're sharing the same pace with somebody.

20 December 2007

daily it was - basic needs

a matter of basic needs.

air, food, drink, shelter, warmth, sex, sleep.

if basic needs can make us happy

what else in the world would we want more?

what else do we have to look for more?

one for me, an intimate conversation.

let's back to basic plus an intimate conversation.

9 March 2008

daily it was - giving

ชนทั้งหลายเหล่าใด เมื่อของมีน้อยก็แบ่งให้ เหมือนพวกเดินทางไกลก็แบ่งของให้แก่พวกที่เดินทางร่วมกัน - เทวดา พระไตรปิฎก ฉบับชาวบ้าน

23 March 2008