On the Fags.. how a smoker thinks

from ELLE March 2009
Interview with Gwyneth Paltrow by Craig McLean

Craig: Shall we pop outside for a cigarette?

Gwyneth: Man, I wish smoking didn't kill you, I'd be smoking right now. I miss it. The last cigarette I smoked was the day I found out I was pregnant with Apple. I had to sit down and smoke one final cigarette [a mourning sigh]. It's such a beautiful thing, I'm so pissed of it gives you cancer. Cigarettes were my upper, they were my downer. I would think with them, write with them. I just love them so much. The act of lighting them. I love the way the raw tobacco smells. But then, once you have children, if you've witnessed a death like I did with my father, you just can't. I'd never want to put them through what I went through. So I don't do it. But I've decided that when I'm about 70 I'm going to start smoking again. Why not? I can't wait!